I interupt this morning by bringing you this special announcement.....

I am going to Wisconsin in August am I am excited!

I got my test results back

So I went in for my ultrasound.They looked at my liver, kidneys, lungs, appendix, gall bladder and ovaries. They also did a vaginal ultrasound and checked my uterus. (First time I ever had one of those done. I didn't like it one bit!) The doctor called me the next day and said that he found a couple things going on. He found a small fibroid on my uterus, which is a cyst that has the possibility of turning into a tumor (?) and a very large cyst on my right ovary. He told me that if the pain gets any worse in the next couple weeks to make sure I come back in otherwise keep taking Aleve for the pain, which I been doing. He is scheduling me for another ultrasound in 6 weeks to check on these things and see if they have grown any. He said it was VERY important that I come back in for the second ultrasound. I guess he's waiting to see if the large cyst goes away on it's own. He said that if it "pops," there could be another one right behind it and that may be why this one is so big. I forgot to ask him exactly "how big" was big, but I forgot. If the thing won't go away on it's own, then maybe he'll have to help it along. So that's that. Now I just wait (uncomfortably I may add)! and see if the thing goes away on it's own before they do anything. It's not very good news but it sure could be worse. For THAT I am thankful! Oh yeah......he also said that my liver is a bit fatty. (JUST my liver?!?!) he-he. Nothing to worry about though. Seems to me that he would have gone in there and removed it or something if it's hurting me that bad, but then again I'm not a Doctor and I don't know what's going on. Do I need to be worried or not? What is the difference between a regular cyst and a fibroid cyst, or are they the same? I wish I would have asked these questions when I talked to him on the phone but I wasn't thinking too clearly. So now I have MORE things to worry about! Prayers for me are welcome. :)

A list of things I am liking and disliking today.....

5 things I'm liking right now:
1. It's Sunday, my day off!
2. That I got Kenny Chesney concert tickets!
3. That our air conditioning is working now
4. My tummy is full, which means I am a happy girl
5. Finally having some free time to pea

5 things I am not liking right now:
1. The results from my ultrasound
2. Not being able to make a decision to go up to Wisconsin in August for vacation.
3. My belly itching like crazy and I don't know why!
4. That I am missing both my children 1,000 miles away
5. The hot and humid weather

My Head Is So Full!

Oh boy my head is so full right now! (Lorrie are you reading this and laughing at me?) I just can't seem to think straight when I have so much going on in my purdy little head. I have decisions that need to be made. I am not good at making decisions. I have a hard time with simply choosing Chocolate or Vanilla, black or white, left or right, thongs or bloomers, sex tonight or tomorrow.....you get the idea. I need to see if I can buy one of those little spinning wheels to keep on my desk that all I have to do is ask a question and spin the wheel and have my decision made for me. You know.....like that big spinning wheel that you see on "The Price is Right". Now that I think about it, I think I bought one of those for someone for Christmas one time. Was it for Lorrie? Or maybe it was something similar. I think it was with darts though. Anyways, here is my dilema. I love Kenny Chesney. I love his songs that he sings. I couldn't wait until he came to NC so that I could get tickets and go see him. Well, he is coming. On August 12th. Now....to make a long story short, sis got me a ticket but it will when I was planning on going up to Wisconsin to see my kiddies. I want to go see my baby Kenny and then I want to see my other "real" babies. Now....... I know which one I REALLY want to do, but there is another problem. This one I'll have to explain a bit first before I continue. Stay with me now....don't get lost......remember that pain I have been having in my lower right hand side? Well I finally took my butt to the doc and had him check it out. He's pretty sure that it isn't my appendix or my gall bladder. What he is thinking is that it could be a cyst or something on my overies. I am schedualed to go have an ultrasound done on Thursday morning of my whole abdominal area. They took a urine and blood sample from me and I won't hear how that turned out for a couple days. He also wants to schedual me for a paps. Oh I won't even get into that one! (starting to feel a bit nausious here!) He asked how long it has been since I had one and I had to think a minute to figure out how old Holly was. He didn't like that one bit. Anyways, I wanted to make my flight reservations now for August, but now with this coming up, I don't feel safe doing that just yet. What if I need to have something done, like removing my female parts or something? I don't have that much sick time at all that I can take. That means I'll have to use my personal days and once that's gone I'll be digging into my vacation time. I don't want to spend my vacation time laying my ass in bed feeling like I just got run over by a friggin truck but I may just have to do that. Are you still following me? So what the hell do I do? Do I just go ahead and tell sis to sell my ticket? (God I don't want her to be mad at me!) Do I go ahead and make reservations for a flight to see my babies? Do I cancel my doctor and reschedual for a different time? Do my kids even WANT me to come see them? Should I go see Kenney and just stay close to home in case something goes wrong with me? Hell if I know!!! Does anyone have any answers for me? I sure could use some help here if anyone is listening! I hate having so much clutter in my head that I can't think straight. Oh well, maybe I won't even have to worry about making a decision. Maybe God will make it for me.

Such a Beautiful Sight!

I came home from work and entered my 86 degree house. Fans blowing like crazy but not doing any damn good. Looked outside to see if I can see if Scott had the lawn mower out because the shed door was open both him and his truck was gone. I walked outside onto the back deck and what to my wondering eyes should appear? Not a sleigh and eight tiny riendeer. It was the most beautiful sight I have ever seen! It was a brand new heat/air unit!!!!!!!! Woooohooooo! Can we all say "Thank You Lord!" You should have seen the smile on my face when I laid my eyes on the beauty! It was as if I had just found a bag full of one hundred dollar bills sitting there just for us! It was such an amazing feeling I can't even begin to describe it! Scott went and helped him unload it from the truck and by doing so he said that he will deduct some money off the final price. How cool is that? They unloaded it and and then the man had to leave to take care of some business. What?? Oh no! PLEASE don't go! Come back! Don't just leave it here for us to LOOK at! We want to USE it! Well, the dude had something else more important to do I reckon but told Scott that we WILL have air by tonight. Tonight never came. Well, actually it DID come but not with the privelage of cool air! Good thing it wasn't all that hot out. We had a "cold spell" come through......91 degrees. Go figure. Tonight we will have air. We BETTER or something bad is going to happen. I can garantee that!

Message about the previous ranting...

So I woke this morning after a good night's sleep thinking about my previous post. I feel so ashamed of myself. How dare I sit and curse and complain about such a simple thing as being hot! Yes I admit I was a little (ok a lot) uncomfortable, but really now.....is that something to complain about? I got to seriously thinking about it and came to the conclusion that it is not. There are so many people out there in the world who do not even know about such a thing as "air conditioning". They never had the luxury of having such a modern commodity. Nor a fan for that matter. Elderly people who are living alone and receiving a pension which is barely enough to cover their food and medical supplies let alone the money it costs to run one. Or the family of six who's husband got laid off from a well paying job that have to think about putting food on his family's dinner table so they can eat. Or maybe even the homeless people (not the ones that are homeless by choice) who have to live and sleep in the heat constantly and who aren't even able to shower the dirt and the stink off of themselves. So am I feeling a little bit grateful right now for being in the miserable situation that we are in? Yes I am. I am feeling very much grateful.
I am grateful that even though it is hot, I have a roof over my head to at least give me some shade. Grateful that we have such a modern thing as air conditioning, and even though it is not working right now, we are able to have it fixed. I am thankful that both Scott and I are secure in our jobs, and that we even HAVE jobs to be able to have it fixed. I am thankful that we are both fairly healthy and strong enough that we are able to work. Even though I hate my job, I AM glad to have it. I'm grateful to have a home. To call it ours and not be renting from someone. Yes, it needs some work, but it is ours and I love living here. This is home! We are free to go down to the pond in the summer evenings and fish until our hearts content.
I am grateful for the friends I have, to be able to just call them up and meet them for dinner or a movie or just hang out by their place and play a game or two. I am grateful that I have such a wonderful friend that I have know for over 23 years and still loves me for who I am. Even though she is a thousand miles away, I don't feel that. She is right here in my heart 24/7 and all I have to do is pick up the phone and she will NEVER be too busy for me! For that I am ever so grateful. Also I am grateful for my family. I can't say enough about them. My wonderful wonderful husband who I adore and who adores me. We have been together over 21 years and he still puts up with my shit. Now that says a lot! A man who makes me laugh, who holds my hand while watching TV or driving in the car, who will love any animal if I bring them home and ask if I can keep it, who brings me a cold soda to the car (with a straw!) when I come home from a hard days work. And my three children. Oh how I love them kids! They are the ones that can make me laugh when all I want to do is cry. They are amazing to me. I see couples struggling to have just one child and here I am blessed three times over! If there is just one thing I did right in this world it's raising these three children to be so kind,loving, and as giving as they are. I am grateful that they are all healthy and that I have the privilege of being called mom by them.
I am also grateful for my wonderful in-laws who accept me even with all my flaws. For my parents who loved me and for mom for literally sacrificing so many things for us kids. I never realized all that was given up until I was an adult and with children of my own. I'm grateful that she stuck by me even though I caused her such misery in my early years. She was the BEST! I'm thankful that I have a sister that I can call and talk to when I need to and who shares the same hobby as me. She is the best scrapbooking buddy I can ever ask for and we have so much damn fun together! Also for my brother Curtis who I miss so damn much it hurts. God only knows how much I love him. He would know too if I was given the chance to show him but he is not close to me and I am unable to just pick up the phone and call him, nor him me. I pray when I go to bed at night that the Lord will put it in his heart that he knows I love him. You see, Curtis literally gets his own special prayer. He is singled out because he is so special to me.
I am grateful for these two little fur balls that are sitting by my stinky feet. Honey and Willie. I really feel that God gave these two canines to me to bring me daily happiness. I could be in the WORST mood and all I have to do is walk in the front door and see them and a smile instantly comes to my face! How can I NOT smile when I have four big brown eyes looking at me, two tails just slapping each other in the face and two stinky slimy tongue washing my face when I bend down to say hello to them! How can I resist when someone missed you THAT MUCH while only being gone 20 minutes!
I can go on and on about how much I have to be grateful for. These are just a few off the top of my head for right now. So do I feel any better? Yes I sure do. As for the heat? Let it get hot baby! I can take it! And you know what? You won't hear another complaint about the heat come out of me again because I am TRULY BLESSED!

It's !@#$%^%^&* HOT!!!!!!

99 f***ing degrees outside today and I have no f***ing relief! I am not only hot but I am a bitch and I feel like hurting someone! If that f***ing air conditioning man don't come by tomorrow to fix this mother f***ing air conditioner I am going to do something that I know I will f***ing regret! This is so f***ing rediculous! Sorry but it's too f***ing hot to write anything today!

My Exciting Sunday

Other then the miserable heat that we been battling here over the last few days it turned out to be a pretty good day. It was hot as a mother brother and to cool off a bit I decided to go and take a trip to Big Lot's. One of the "peas" from the message board had a post about Big Lot's and posted a picture of all the scrapbooking goodies that she found there. I tell ya I really need to stop reading them posts because all they do is cost me money! Well anyway, I took a trip down to Selma and wowsie did I score! They had quite a bit of the "Architecture" scrapbooking line for a measly dollar! I took what I could get and also scored on quite a few other things also. I got some leather photo corners, a leather mini photo frame, some antique looking vellum accents, apack of printed 12x12 paper, self adhesive sticky letters, metal word embelishments, some really cute stickers, some monogram letters (T,S,R,N and H) and some other goodies. I was so excited! I felt I really needed to treat myself since I haven't been out doing anything for the last couple weeks. I didn't spend a whole lot at all believe it or not. Oh hell....doesn't matter even if I did. I deserve it dammit! lol
I finally got to spend some time with just the girls today. I met up with Kitty and Billy and we went out to dinner in Fuguay at Golden Corral. Other people it takes them maybe about 45 minutes to eat and be on their way. Well, not for us. I don't know exactly how long we took with eating and talking and all, but I do know that the table next to us had 3 people eat dinner and leave while we were still on eating our "Oh so Awesome Potroast"! Yeah I know. We talk a lot. I also got to finally see where Kitty and Billy live. They moved a few months back and I never got a chance to see their new place. It's nice and big! I forgot how many bedrooms they have but I remember how many bathrooms they have. You know how I know? Because after eating at Golden Coral we each had to "go" and so we each picked one. No need to wait for the other to finish stinking it up. Lord I hate to see the expression on someones face had they walked in the house after we were all done! Whew! Cheryl also got a new kitty. She is 3 months old today and her name is "Midnight Puddin". Don't ask. She is the cutest lil' thing! Loves to play and has green/orange eyes. I am so glad she finally got a pet! Doreen got it for her for Mother's Day while she was out of state somewhere so she couldn't take her back if Cheryl didn't want her. She planned it that way. She's slick.
It was great to see my friends again. Next week we are planning on maybe getting together and seeing a movie or something. Whatever we end up doing I know we'll have fun because I'll be spending it with friends that I love! Until next time..........

Welcome to HELL!

I couldn't wait for the warm weather to come and now it's finally here. Well, I want it to go away now. It's been 2 days and I had enough already! Yesterday I decided that it was time to turn on the AC because it got up to 79 degrees in the house. So here I go and close all the windows up tight and finally broke down and cut the dang thing on. I thought since I'm waiting for it to cool off I'll take a trip to Joanns. Well, a couple hours later I get back home hoping I'd enter a nice cool comfortable house. WRONG. What the hell? I look at the thermostat and it says 81 degrees. Did I turn the damn heat on by mistake? Lemme check. Nope. It shows a little "snowflake" and that means cold. Well, maybe since it's a little bigger house it needs more time. I check back 30 minutes later. It is now 83 *&^%$#@! degrees. Scott and I checked everything. We checked the wires to the unit outside, cleaned and replaced the filter with a new one, tore open the thermostat to make sure it was ok. Ckeck it again....it's now 84 degrees. I think I figured it out. Our air conditioner is not working. I now saved us about $65 for a guy to come out and tell us that. So we prayed for the sun to go down and for a nice cool summer breeze to relieve us from our misery so we can get some sleep. Did we? No. We didn't. After getting a little sleep I woke up feeling like I was back to being 2 years old and waking up to a wet bed. Eeeeew! I walked in the kitchen and believe it or not it was quite cool in there. I knew it wasn't going to last long though. I tried to call sis because we did have plans on her coming here and us scrapbooking all day. I wanted to give her a warning of what she was getting herself into and if she wanted to cancel I would completely understand. Nope. She was going to be a brave soul and deal with it. After all, we had WORK to do! We braved it pretty good by shutting all the windows and blinds and by turning all the ceiling fans on. We got a couple pages done but not anything like we had planned. I, of course, had to "take a break" which consisted of me laying on the couch for just a minute to cool off some. Next thing you know dear ol' sis was waking me up with bags and a cold drink in her hand saying bye to me. Was she leaving so soon? Buy why? Why was her face so shiny and her shirt all wet? I just don't understand? We still had work to do didn't we? I didn't even get to the front door to see her off and she was gone. Disappeared. What is that in my driveway? Skidmarks? Hmmmm.....

12 Lists Just For Fun.......

I got this idea from reading a couple other peoples blogs and thought it would be kind of fun. Yeah I know...it doesn't take much to entertain me.

12 Movies:
1. Bad Boys
2. Family Man
3. How to Loose a Guy In Ten Days
4. A Beautiful Mind
5. The Notebook
6. Gone In 60 Seconds
7. Finding Nemo
8. Office Space
9. Blow
10. Pirattes of the Caribbean

11 Good Bands/Artists
1. Pink Floyd
2. Creed
3. Black Sabbath
4. Led Zeppelin
5. Rush
6. Kenny Chesney
7. Vince Gill
8. The Judds (when they were together)
9. Altered Bridge
10. Ray Charles
11. Elvis

10 Things About Me
1. Brown/Blond colored hair
2. Brown eyes
3. I have been married to a great guy for 21 years now
4. I love everything whimsical
5. I have 2 shelties
6. I hate my job but not yet ready to move on
7. I don't do mornings very well
8. I have a lot of quirky habits
9. I look younger then what I am
10. I always wanted to be a vetinarian

9 Things I Do Daily
1. Have at LEAST 3 cups of coffee in the morning!
2. Brush My Teeth
3. Shower
4. Check my e-mail
5. Spend time with my 2 shelties
6. Go to work
7. Play on twopeasinabucket
8. Try and get some scrapping done
9. Pray

8 Favorite Foods/Drinks
1. Roast Beef
2. Hot Wings
3. Food From Taco Bell
4. McDonalds Double Cheeseburgers
5. Lorries Eclair Cake
6. Coke
7. Sweet Tea
8. White Russians

7 Things I Wear Daily
1. Flip Flops
2. Perfume
3. Capris
4. Earrings
5. My Work Uniform
6. Earplugs
7. Sunglasses

6 Things I Hate
1. Stupid Drivers
2. Negativity
3. When people say "GD"
4. Dirty dishes in the sink
5. Roaches (EEECK!)
6. Drunks

5 Good Friends (in no particular order)
1. Janet
2. Cheryl
3. Sheryl
4. Billie
5. Chris

4 Shows I Watch
1. Grays Anatomy
2. Desperate Housewives
3. MAD TV
4. SNL

3 People I Wish I Could See Right Now
1. Ryan
2. Holly
3. Janet

2 Things I Want
1. Financial Security
2. A Grandbaby

1 Place I Lived
1. In Milwaukee, Wisconsin

So I went by my nephew Shawns house for a Memorial Day cookout. I gotta tell ya that that man can cook! We all pitched in and brought something to eat but I have to tell ya about those brat's and burgers he made. Them burgers were so damn good! I took one bite and knew that this wasn't going to be just a "one burger" thing! So "what did he put in it" you ask? Powder Ranch Dressing mix. Yup. Before making the patties he mixed in the dressing. Now for me I would put in Onion soup mix but not no more. Oh no-sir-ree! It's ranch dressing from now on! Oh and them brats....they were to DIE for! He made 2 separate batches. One batch he pierced the brats and then let them soak overnight in Heineken Beer and the other batch he pierced them, put in a kettle with a bottle of Heine and boiled the pure hell out of them! After boiling them, off to the grill they went. I can't even describe in words what they smelled like once they started cooking on the grill! Now I know the neighbors probably already ate and everything but their mouths had to have been watering smelling them bad boys on the grill! I already had 2 burgers....yes, you read that right....2 burgers (eeek!) and was so stuffed but dear sis insisted that I take a bite of one of the brats. I didn't want to, but as insistant as sis is (say that 3 times real quick!) I did and wouldn't you know it there goes my already fat ass back into the kitchen to get a whole one! I couldn't help it. Really I couldn't. They were that DAMN GOOD! I will never make my brats the same way again! It's beer brat's all the way baby!
Now I also have to mention something else that was special about being there. While my dear daughter was washing the dishes after everyone pigged out, I was watching her and all of a sudden it hit me. After years of planning, cooking and cleaning up, I was so moved to be able to be on the "other side" and have her do the planning, cooking, serving and cleaning. After this wave of emotion hit me tears started forming in my eyes and I had to remove myself from the room before she noticed it or else I would have had to endure the typical teasing I am always delt when I get emotional. It was just so nice to be able to have not just someone else do the entertaining for a change, but to have my daughter do it for me! It meant a lot to me and when it came time for me to go home, I had to make that sure that both Shawn and Nichole knew that. Now I won't mention about the ride home and what accured in the car while by myself. I will keep that a mystery. Yeah.....like no one could guess huh? It was nice. Real nice.