My Head Is So Full!

Oh boy my head is so full right now! (Lorrie are you reading this and laughing at me?) I just can't seem to think straight when I have so much going on in my purdy little head. I have decisions that need to be made. I am not good at making decisions. I have a hard time with simply choosing Chocolate or Vanilla, black or white, left or right, thongs or bloomers, sex tonight or tomorrow.....you get the idea. I need to see if I can buy one of those little spinning wheels to keep on my desk that all I have to do is ask a question and spin the wheel and have my decision made for me. You know.....like that big spinning wheel that you see on "The Price is Right". Now that I think about it, I think I bought one of those for someone for Christmas one time. Was it for Lorrie? Or maybe it was something similar. I think it was with darts though. Anyways, here is my dilema. I love Kenny Chesney. I love his songs that he sings. I couldn't wait until he came to NC so that I could get tickets and go see him. Well, he is coming. On August 12th. Now....to make a long story short, sis got me a ticket but it will when I was planning on going up to Wisconsin to see my kiddies. I want to go see my baby Kenny and then I want to see my other "real" babies. Now....... I know which one I REALLY want to do, but there is another problem. This one I'll have to explain a bit first before I continue. Stay with me now....don't get lost......remember that pain I have been having in my lower right hand side? Well I finally took my butt to the doc and had him check it out. He's pretty sure that it isn't my appendix or my gall bladder. What he is thinking is that it could be a cyst or something on my overies. I am schedualed to go have an ultrasound done on Thursday morning of my whole abdominal area. They took a urine and blood sample from me and I won't hear how that turned out for a couple days. He also wants to schedual me for a paps. Oh I won't even get into that one! (starting to feel a bit nausious here!) He asked how long it has been since I had one and I had to think a minute to figure out how old Holly was. He didn't like that one bit. Anyways, I wanted to make my flight reservations now for August, but now with this coming up, I don't feel safe doing that just yet. What if I need to have something done, like removing my female parts or something? I don't have that much sick time at all that I can take. That means I'll have to use my personal days and once that's gone I'll be digging into my vacation time. I don't want to spend my vacation time laying my ass in bed feeling like I just got run over by a friggin truck but I may just have to do that. Are you still following me? So what the hell do I do? Do I just go ahead and tell sis to sell my ticket? (God I don't want her to be mad at me!) Do I go ahead and make reservations for a flight to see my babies? Do I cancel my doctor and reschedual for a different time? Do my kids even WANT me to come see them? Should I go see Kenney and just stay close to home in case something goes wrong with me? Hell if I know!!! Does anyone have any answers for me? I sure could use some help here if anyone is listening! I hate having so much clutter in my head that I can't think straight. Oh well, maybe I won't even have to worry about making a decision. Maybe God will make it for me.